Thursday, May 3rd /no picture

I don’t really remember what happened that day. Uhm. Some stupid shit. Then I went to Joseph’s, we had dinner, and we went to the play at Argo. Joseph got an in-school for wearing an “I enjoy vaginas” shirt. What a classy boyfriend I have<3

Friday, May 4th

Idk man. Went to the play at Argo again and met up with Axel Leannan. Whoop whoop. 

Saturday, May 5th

Happy cinco de mayo. Andy came over and he got me white castles, cause he’s an amazing best friend. Then Me Jess and Brianna went to May Fest, and picked up Nessa and Leslie afterwards and went to BDubs. I got an application to work there. We got followed by some creep. 

Sunday, May 6th - Tuesday, May 8th /No pictures

I don’t even remember. Joe came over Sunday, and I don’t even remember what happened the other two days.

Wednesday, May 9th

Got my period, fucking joy. Went over to Janeth’s after school to curl her hair. We ate, hung out, and watched a couple movies before we had to leave for the choir concert. I was pissed basically the whole concert for reasons ha ha fucking ha. :-) Joseph’s grandma came up to me afterwards asking if I was okay cause she could tell something was wrong, then she gave me the biggest hug in the world saying how she was going to miss going to choir concerts, and to tell her when the concerts are next year so she can come see me. She’s so cute, I love gram. Lol, everything just kind of blew up when I got home and I started crying and screaming at Tyler and throwing things and the only good thing was that my prom dress came.

Thursday, May 10th

Nothing happened in school. Choir was basically our blow-off period, so we did absolutely nothing. Yay.

Friday, May 11th /No Picture

My sister’s birthday, whoooooo. I was the first to tell her happy birthday. Nothing really happened in school. Uhm. 

Saturday, May 12th

Took a grandkids picture for my grandparents. Then my mom took my sister and I shopping, and I got my prom shoes. After that, I got dropped off at Josh’s and we walked to Mariah’s house and met up with a bunch of people who were high and lol i felt so awkward cause I knew nobody. Amanda’s mom dropped us off at Speedway, Josh and I bought lots of junk food, and walked back to his house where we proceeded to watch Scream. It was a lovely night with my brother.

Sunday, May 13th

Woke up, and Josh and I ate all the junk food we bought the night before. Then we went through his treasure box, I found it so interesting. Went to my grandma’s, celebrated mother’s day/my sister’s birthday/my grandpa’s birthday. And now I’m home. K I’m done here. 

Monday, April 23rd - Wednesday, April 25th /No picture

I honestly don’t remember what happened on these days. 

Thursday, April 26th 

Only thing I remember is posting a status saying I’d post a picture on someone’s wall with a pick-up line if they liked it. So, that’s what I did. 

Friday, April 27th

Slept by Jessica’s that night. I drove to McDonald’s illegally in Jessica’s mom’s car after she paid her mom to let me do it. Whoop whoop. \m/ Joseph and I got into a fight, what else is new. 

Saturday, April 28th

Fabio and I were supposed to hang out, but the loser ditched me. Cool, bro. Joseph asked to be official again, I said no. I just needed time to think. I ended up going to see Andy’s musical, Godspell. I felt completely stupid because I had no idea what was going on the whole time. But, it was pretty good. Reunited with Nick. Asked Joseph back out when I came home, and now we’re back together officially. 

Sunday, April 29th

I went over to Joseph’s and we watched Shrek and cuddled and I got lots of tummy kisses and basically it was wonderful. His mom made us dinner. It was a nice day. 

Monday, April 30th

“I’m a bitch with good intentions.” That quote pretty much summarizes my day. I really could care less. Shopped at Victoria’s Secret and got a push-up bra for prom, and with that I got a free v-neck. W00t. 

Tuesday, May 1st

Yet again, nothing really happened. It was an extremely easy day. I liked how I looked, and that was basically it. Kelsey and I cheated for each other in Spanish, because we’re sneaky bastards. 

Wednesday, May 2nd.

WE FINALLY HAVE MILK! WHOO! Uhm, I was actually have a good day until second period. Suri decided that “Oh, it doesn’t matter that Joe and Amanda are dating. I’m going to pair him with Briauna and Emily for Marry You.” Fucking cute, right? I was so pissed, and it was so obvious, yet Suri didn’t seem to notice because she’s an idiot. I hate that class. I never have a good day in that class, ever. Choir rehearsal after school, cute. And now I really need to go do homework/write back to Mike Hudson. Peace. 

Wednesday, April 18th /No Picture

I don’t remember what I did. My brother came home from Vegas, said he brought me home special-made chocolate, and handed me the candy from his Easter Basket. This negro. 

Thursday, April19th /No Picture

Got the wifi password from my brother. \m/ Learned the try-out routine for poms, it was pretty easy if I do say so myself. 

Friday, April 20th

Instead of getting high like everybody else, I went over by Leslie’s, then us and Emily and Brianna hung out there and practiced the try out routine. Then we watched part of Moulin Rouge and fell asleep.

Saturday, April 21st /No picture

Try-outs! I was so nervous. After try-outs I went over by Jessica’s dad’s and went shopping with her and Candace and Madi. When we got back, her dad made us some really good burgers. I found out I made varsity! :D Then my mom took Jess and I to see The Vow, I absolutely adored the movie. It was a good day. I like those kinds of days. I need to have more of those in my life. 

Sunday, April 22nd

Went over to my grandma’s with Joseph, watched Tangled and Toy Story 2, Played with my cousin Luke, and that’s about it. Today has been oh so productive. 

Sunday, April 8th /No picture

Went by my aunt Laura’s for Easter, played draw something with my sister, came home and packed.

Monday, April 9th /No picture

Packed some more, met up with Joseph, only got to hang out with him for twenty minutes because him and Emily had to “talk” even though they should’ve fucking talked a long time ago. -__- That basically ruined my whole day, because I would’ve liked to see him for more than twenty fucking minutes. We left for Disney, whoop whoop.

Tuesday, April 10th

Kentucky at 4am, Tennessee at 6am. I found Miley Cyrus, y’all. Georgia for the rest of the day, until we git Orlando and got to our hotel at around 7pm. Swam with Damaris, then hung out with her, Nessa, and Rachel in our hotel room.

Wednesday, April 11th

Blizzard beach, hell yeah! Spent half the day there, then went to Epcot in the middle of the day. It was pretty boring, except for Soarin. Then we went to our poms clinic, and I hated it. It was boring and apart from learning some of the dance from Beauty and the Beast, there was absolutely nothing special about it. Goofy came in and danced with us at the end. We missed fireworks at Epcot, which pissed me off. Oh well.

Thursday, April 12th

MAGIC KINGDOM! I spent all day with Rachel, Vanessa, and Laura. It was pretty great. I went on Splash Mountain, which was basically my first water roller coaster ride. I pissed myself. Then I went on space mountain, which was my first REAL rollercoaster. Yay! We got to go behind the scenes and backstage Disney so we could get ready to march in the parade, and honestly, I wish I hadn’t of done it. It ruined all the magic for me. But the parade was fun, I suppose. I was nervous, and I kept walking ahead of my line though. We changed back, and watched the rest of the parade, and then the fireworks. 

Friday, April 13th

Nessa’s Birthday:) Spent the whole day with the group again, yeah buddy. Went to Hollywood Studios for half the day. We went on the rock’n roll roller coaster, which went upside down, and that was my first upside down roller coaster. Oh god, I almost cried. Then we went on tower of terror, which scared me shitless. But we also went on toy story, which was fun. (: Then halfway throughout the day we left and went to downtown Disney. Bought some gifts. Then we had to go behind the scenes backstage for our show choir performance. Emily hugged me before we went on, which kind of surprised me. But we both wished each other good luck, and we hoped we wouldn’t flash the crowd our vaginas because we were in dresses and we weren’t wearing panty hoses. It was pretty grand. 

Saturday, April 14th 

Ohai, I met Captain America. Jealous? Yeah, I know. We went to Universal and stayed there all day. I was so freaking tired, I didn’t want to go on any rides. But Spiderman and Harry Potter were my favorite rides. Then we finally got back on the bus and drove home.

Sunday, April 15th /No picture

We finally got home! Yayayay. I was so happy. Joseph got me to come over because he had a “surprise”, and then I later found out there was no surprise. -__- But, his mom made noodles for dinner just for me. I gave them the souvenir that I bought them, and they loved it. When I was leaving, his father told me if he ever had a daughter, he’d want her to be just like me. Then both of his parents told me they loved me. So, I’m pretty sure I’m back on their good side. c: 

Monday, April 16th /No Picture

I was so excited to see Jessica! I gave her her pillow, and she carried it around with her all day. She’s so cute. I love her. c: Went home, organized pictures, that took forever and a half. Andy texted me! I got my other best friend back. I’m so happy right now. I’ve got my two best friends in the whole wide world, and my boyfriend. I’m happy. 

Tuesday, April 17th

Started watching the Great Gatsby. God, the acting in that movie is horrible. Other than that, school was back to being normally boring. Turned in my poms stuff after school. I was forced to go to Subway with Joseph and Berrian. -__- I was actually looking forward to going to math resource, considering I had math homework that I actually needed help on for once. Came home, and tumbl’d. I’m doing pretty good at not letting the date get to me. Lalala. Whooo. 

Tuesday, March 27th.

All I remember happening that day is going to Subway with Berrian and Joseph, going to the bathroom there and crying because of that Sara chick, coming back to find that Berrian pushed Joseph to do what made him happy, so he texted Emily telling her he was in love with me and he wanted to be happy with me and he didn’t think it was fair to lose his best friend over being with someone who made him happy. 

Wednesday, March 28th

I talked things through with Emily that morning in choir. We both established we didn’t hate each other, even though I’m pretty sure she still hates me. Oh well. At least I talked things through with her, and things seem okay between us.

Thursday, March 29th

Joseph and I went to the hawks game, whoop whoop! Our first hawks game, together or separately. They won in a shoot-out, 4-3. 

Friday, March 30th

I don’t even remember what happened that day

Saturday, March 31st

Went to that Cinderella’s closet thing at school, met up with Jessica and Kaleigh and Rachel there. Jess Kaleigh and I went to Orland mall and tried on ugly prom dresses. Kaleigh went home. I saw Rocky Horror Picture Show for the first time. Brianna Vee Jess and I went downtown Lagrange, got chipoltle, then scared the shit out of like, 4 13 year olds. We met up with Abigail at Walmart. We ended up sleeping at Vee’s. 

Sunday, April 1st

Had dinner at Tom and Laura’s. Made ice cream sundaes. Yay.

Monday, April 2nd - Wednesday, April 4th

I don’t remember what happened? Nothing special really happened. Wednesday we had to fill out some stupid shit for the ACT. Then we took the pre ACT after school, then I had some marching practice for Disney. 

Thursday, April 5th

Went to the thrift store with Jessica and Sonya, then slept over at Jessica’s dad’s house. 

Friday, April 6th

Cleaned, and that’s about it. 

Saturday, April 7th

Went to the track meet at Argo, then met up with Josh and Emily Lopez and walked to Emily’s. We went to a garage sale then the thrift store. Then we went and said bye to Taylor and Rachael cause they were leaving for Florida. Then we went back to Emily’s and just hung out at her house and took pictures and danced to mexican music, and it was absolutely lovely. Today was great. I need to have more of these kinds of days. 

Sunday, March 25th. (No picture)

Basically, I woke up at Jessica’s, we ordered pizza and watched Smash all day, had some fun, I went home, went to my grandma’s, got my hair cut, ate oreos, went home, and that’s about it.

Monday, March 26th.

Everyone kept complimenting me on my hair today, telling me it was pretty or how it brought out my eye color. I had to make up two biology tests at after hours, then Joseph and I walked to subway. We ended up having to fight the urge to act like a couple, again. And, yet again, we failed at it because we ended up kissing/cuddling and rawr. I hate knowing that we both know we belong together, but we can’t do anything because it’ll cause drama between him and Emily/Emily and I. And Emily and I just started talking again, so. Went home, played a shitton of draw something, and now shower time/homework. 

Friday, March 23rd.

I don’t really remember much of what happened at school. But I went home, got ready, then Jess and I went to Andy’s surprise birthday party. Bitch almost ruined his own party because he wasn’t going to come home. Sara and Andy tried getting their friend Andy and I to get together so he can take me to stl prom. The whole night was wonderful. Taylor, Andy, his sister, Jess and I stayed up til 3am talking about shows and what not. Then Jess and I slept over at Andy’s, and we all knocked out so quickly. 

Saturday, March 24th. 

Went out to breakfast with Andy and Jessica, that was lovely. I got lots of looks from Mexicans because I was wearing Andy’s Obama shirt. Jessica’s mom picked us up, we went with her mom and brothers to go get their haircuts, then went to the mall because Jacob needed new shoes. Then we got dropped off at Jessica’s dad’s house, we drank (well I basically did all the drinking but oh well), Jessica dyed my hair, and we watched bad girls club. Joseph called and we got into a fight and I felt like a shit best friend afterward because I kind of just left Jessica. Knocked out basically as soon as I laid down. 

Wednesday, March 21st. 

School went by so quickly, dear lord. I went to Dr. Lambert’s office right after school, which I was pretty damn happy about. I also got McDonald’s. c: I basically didn’t do much after I got home, though. I sat and went through old things on my computer/Jessica’s personal and cried, yay. I hate when I do that to myself.

Thursday, March 22nd.

I would randomly remember what day it was all throughout the day, and I ended up having a shitty day because of that. Joseph made me skip ACT to go to math resources. When we got out, shit was going down over facebook concerning Josh. So, I did what any sister would do, and I bitched all the pricks out. Joseph walked over to my house later on that night and we hung out and he decided it would be okay to “leave his mark” on my neck. Then when he got home, we talked on the phone until right before midnight, and we three-way called Taylor to wish her a happy birthday. And that was my day. 

Tuesday, March 20th.

Basically, today was shit. After school/math resources, I had a talk with Joseph and to sum it up, I ended up crying and hurting him because of that, and I yelled at him before I stormed off. I ended up walking to my getaway spot. Taylor and Briauna broke up, so I basically have no hope for love. I talked to Briauna though, and tried helping her as best as I could. We made plans to hang out soon, so that’s pretty much the only thing I’m excited for.

Monday, March 19th.

School was nothing special. But then again, when is it ever? I went to after hours with Joseph, and then Berrian joined us. When we were finished, we walked to subway, and I broke my lent promise.. -__- And now I’m mad at myself, because I said I wouldn’t put myself in this situation again. Took the bus home and made it home just in time for Pretty Little Liars. Craaazy stuff, man. Flipped shit cause I thought Andy and I were staying the at the same hotel in Florida, cried cause I figured out we’re not. And now I feel like shit because I like to make myself miserable and I just hate myself and I have gay feelings and I’m very very naive.